i dun understand why things go this way. at work and outside. i need time and space to sort my life and understand things from a clearer and helicopter view, so to speak. NO ONE is giving me the space.

things at work, lets not go there...cuz everyone is fighting for survival of the fittest and i think its best to leave it as it is, cuz colleagues cud never be your BFF thats for sure...You can still depend on your frens who been there for you thru thick and thin...
i mean, whats with the backstabbing and all that? YOU people are simply making things worst by not solving the matter. All i can say now... its best that EVERYONE sees the picture. know the truth. not all things are only so and so's fault. we need to understand a certain factor that contributes to her action being that way.
I know i played a part in that, but i had made my peace. i shall not be politicking my way to hell's gate...cuz i have seen the light...

my outside life... i want you to know that i need time to sort my life.
cuz everything seems to be surrounded and reminding me of you...
i have moved on... DETACHED from you physically and mentally.., EMOTIONALLy, i need the time but you are not giving me the space to..
its not that i wanna hate you cuz i dun.. but i need time to heal all the wounds and deceptions that i went thru when we were together.

Albeit its long, i have yet come to terms with the fact that im no longer yours.
i have come to terms, too, that we dun belong together, forever, always... and we are not meant to be. so acting cheap and asking for attention, im not gonna give you anymore affection. let everybody know.. we were never meant for each other...
i mean, sigh.... i need time for the healing process lah....
i need that. pls respect the boundaries. dun tempt me into going to smthg or someplace where i feel succumbed to you. cuz i will not let myself feel or go that way.
dun second guess me...
i guessed ive already made my decision.
who im gonna be with will not change who we are and who we used to be.
im sorry...

you will always be in my heart. u and i know that.
but my heart has closed ALL doors for you to hurt me like before.
save all your second (or million) other chances before this one...for someone who will benefit this after me.
i wish you all the best in your future undertakings.
i wished the same for mine as well...

and for my dearest fren, i know you been hurt too by your past rships and workplace has been hell for you. but i know one day... ONE DAY you will know that thru my rship with u know who... i tend to come out of it a tad too late... u shdnt feel bad for it.. when its time to leave, you juz leave.. save the wounds for yourself by not letting others hurt you with lies and their so called 1000,000,000,000,000,000 promises...

you got me baby girl.. and i got your back.
so leave him if he isnt meant for you ok?

and to all the mofos who will be celebrating v-day, have fun.
those not, well, like someone i know said before:

THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE FOR EVERYONE... rite? hur hur

*hugs