Friday, October 20, 2006
Finallly......Able to blog at last... If yu are wondering... why the silence in the emails, blogs thats cuz im on 2 weeks vacation!!Been wandering aimlessly in Vivo City, the mst happening mall in twn.Its damn huge... Met my uncle who works at Gordon Max and he's gonna get me smthg!!!Some things juz cant be explained.OOOhhhhhh!!! Im making kuih for raya..simple ones...4th - Income outing.11th- Chicas raya outin.Plan for what to wearTo those who're celebrating raya,here's wishing yu a wonderful EID MUBARAK.Maaf Zahir Batin.....and the story goes on..................
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Friday, October 13, 2006
What is happening here? my posts are all ridiculously gone!
and its friday and iM pissed!
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Thursday, October 12, 2006
Ok..this mrng before i left work, i got the chance to sneak a peek at angel.awwwwww... You wudnt know till you hv babies man!i used to wonder why the hell ppl are so bothered...till i hv angel.ears pierced. sunat...dah!kiss the tante pearle..... dah!yummy!
I see that the technique red and white polka dotted mushrooms are quite useful.hmmm.Kudos to Ashes!ok people... spread the loveeeee..................Went geylang to break fast with the usuals..had an extraodinary feeling that bananna banzai tastes good!went window shopping and bought 'heart' and 'eiffel im in love' dvd.. FINALLY!btw,they cheated of our money... we paid 10 bucks thinkin that it was dvd. but it was vcd.darn mofo!den we tot of getting mre stuff like honey chicken and all that...nic was not up to it... since she wasnt, and i was kinda sad that I was short of cash... we went back... ALONE. used to be juz the 2 of us...talked things out and things seems up a lil den before... i'd say...watching friends dvd helps... and watching heart makes it all worst!ashes ahhh! told me that its not suicide movie... HELL YEAH!!!! IT IS! YOU DUMB WIT!I din realy cry at the part, but twads the end, where he climbed the treehouse, i cant stop crying!the feeling brings me back to the happy times i had with YOU.darn.... darn ... darn....."if you love somebody could it be this strong?I will fight to win our love will conquer all...Wouldnt risk my love, even juz one niteOur love will stay in my heart... my heart.."Oh somebody KILL me pls!
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Monday, October 09, 2006
sad and lonely without u...
I feel so melancholic today.
Woke up zoinked however refreshed with all the good sunday sleep I had.
I woke up sad, thinking of how its been towards me.
I dun wanna cry anymore, I dun want to be in denial but each time when I walk, things seemed to be reminding me of you.
I know I shudnt think abt you especially thinkin how much hurt Ive gone thru when we're together
but It hurts when we are apart as well...
I tried occupying myself with things that doesnt reminds me of you
but tell me one thing... everything seems to be!
Being alone is very depressing and I know I had to move on.
I hate seeing you in this state, but im sorry i hate to see myself in this state too!
Ive been in this for too long and no more being sorry and no more thinking of others first before me.
I have to think about me. You were my priority. My heart; my soul; my everything....
Why did you have to put me in the spot!? Why cant I breathe properly?
Its endless. I got to put a stop to this. Do you even think abt how I feel instead of juz you feeling this way?
Sigh.. t'was the end, I felt numb with all the things you done to me.
Though it may be little but the hurt cuts deep.
As the song goes - First Cut is the deepest.. it really is.
Plus you dont rectify it, it goes deeper.
Im hurt. I duno what else to do to get u off....
I cant seem to sort myself out without feeling so bitter and sad with all these obstacles.
We used to say - THE BEST RELATIONSHIPS ARE THE ONES WHICH HAS A LOT OF OBSTACLES
well, yeah those were the times when i held on to our obstacles as hopes for us, a chance for us to live again..
the fire is gone now... we cant relight it. Not now.
if you cud spend a day, JUST A DAY, in my shoes, how much hurt you had filled me with,
its like opening the pandora's box and seeing the bad side of life, secrets untold...hurts unfolded...
you'd be surprised.
you will be.
til den...
bye.
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Saturday, 7th October
Lets see, I went to work stoned, drained.. not from talkin to ashes over the fone, and stop thinkin that its cuz of u lar! hahahah! its cuz i been too drained from all the stress at work and also from you know who...
I might be living in denial till its ok for me to think that its ok when its not.
Maybe living in denial cud do me some good, but i dunno ...
All i asked for was some solace. I need time to sort myself out, release from all the stress...
Maybe im askin for too much.
Out with the bitter ones after work at woodlands.
I tot that I cud have my sleep during the 45 mins journey,Wylie called and talked..
Goddammit!!
I was used to her talkin to me abt her interests and things, but somehow i juz cant focus on talkin or even listening to her and I guessed she got the hint. I cant be that mean rite? Oh well... I juz need my nap, is that too much to ask for?
Went to Sakae and it was ok cuz i was hungry and ashes been askin for it since the day before cuz I was too full and too lazy to walk in the haze on friday nite in twn. So yeah...
We ate a lot at sakae.. Now we now whats the trick.. *if you know what i mean...
The funnny part was during payments, Ashes cudnt stop laughing and I asked her questions she ignored me and pretended talkin over the fone! Nic as usual, kept a straight face looked at the gal for confirmation...
after it was confirmed, after paying the price for it, we ran like there was no tmr..
that Nic escaped headed to the toilet to pee... Huh! peee my ass!
That was worth laughing aloud! really! it really was smthg that I cant able to stop laughing.
See... next time we can do it again huh people?
we shud... this time we dun make it 6 plates unaccounted for... we make it more.... what say you???
I wanna go do it again.. juz for thrill... cheap or expensive.. its worth the fun.
Ashes and Nic-a-Lodeon....what say you guys?===============================================================Sunday, 8th October
Basically nothing..
Slept all day... only wake up to know that I am late to catch Tomb Raider!
dammmit! I tot that it was after news.. but den again...
U know when you wake up so late in the evening you tot its the next day and you are late for school or work?
yeap i had that feeling until my fren called me to update me the time and day.
And you wun feel tired or sleepy cuz you had slept the whole sunday! yeah .... thats great isnt it!
the feelign is good man...
Wakin up with thousands of sms-es and missed calls...
nothing seems to get thru you cuz you are fully sedated? hahahahaha!
good feelings...
talked to a fren again all nite..this time i am truely focused... not sleepin on her.
thats good rite? I dun blame you for those times when you took my energy away
i was kidding lar.. so dun take my words to heart sweets..
I will be nicer to you ok? hahahahah!
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Saturday, October 07, 2006
MY SOUL IS BLEEDING........and the story goes on..................
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Thursday, October 05, 2006
The Adek beradeks went for dinner yest at Simei, Sakura Rest.Those attended.1) Munz Kak Long2) Zaki Pak Tam3) Catt4) PearleThose who are SUPPOSED to come but for SOME REASONS, they cant make it...1) Elle2) Arlin - Sick with fever3) Hemz - Claimed no one updated and made confirmations.4) Azlin - Busy kangkang-ing at home for bf...5) Judas - too much to explain (heh!)Family pet and Family pest not included...significant other (if theres any, are not included)Albeit the absentees, we sure had fun man! We laughed so hard that the place literally shook!Or cud be the sound vibrations? Above all that, Thank you zaki for paying for the meal.I will treat you too one of these days.. if God willing...My appraisal is approved! that goes for a celebration...!!!....and the story goes on..................
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006
to whom it may concern...aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmuaku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindukarena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimuoh karena hati tlah letihaku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuhaku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamutanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hatioh bayangmu seakan-akankau seperti nyanyian dalam hatikuyg memanggil rinduku padamuseperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu adahanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenangtanpa dirimu aku merasa hilangdan sepi, dan sepi..kau selalu ada...kau selalu ada.......and the story goes on..................
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(pic of me and Yazmeen Tamima)
..I am now a proud aunt of a baby girl!
My sis juz gave birth this morning at 6am.
Kinda anticipating it though... like how I anticipated when Ilham and Kirsche was born...
yeah.. thats Yazmeen Tamima, my niece, and yeah she looks like me when I was her age...
Now I can have my own niece to play and spoil her rotten with...
I cant wait to see her later.. dunno whats the name for the new baby, but its gonna be PHA-BULOUS!
More pics like this soon...
Congrats to you guys...! Now I must think of another way the baby to call me instead of Auntie Pearle or in Boyan, they will call me OBEK! So over!!! i dun wanna make myself sound sooo old!
oh well... the baby is healthy thats better than anything else.....
and the story goes on..................
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Monday, October 02, 2006
Paradise Lost (John Milton)
Smthg to share with you ppl... call me a bore I dun care. Im bored thats why!!!smthg that i read during my days of down.Smthg that I juz write daily pertaining to life..I have always applied Milton's researches in my private journals.I think you shd read this novel as PARADISE LOST by John Milton is considered the greatest epic poem in the English language. However, many readers find the language too complex to understand. Who cares? I dun... wahaha!II
For now to sorrow must I tune my song,And set my Harpe to notes of saddest wo,Which on our dearest Lord did sease er'e long, Dangers, and snares, and wrongs, and worse then so,Which he for us did freely undergoMost perfect Heroe, try'd in heaviest plightOf labours huge and hard, too hard for human wight...I carry hence; though all by mee is lost,Such favour I unworthie am voutsaft,By mee the Promis'd Seed shall all restore. Taken from Lines 621-623. Speaking precisely, Adam has not been banished for Eve's crime, nor has all been lost through her transgression, nor shall the "Promis'd Seed" restore all by her. Milton presents Eve as having the gist of the matter, but not the precise details. It's as if Milton puts the first misogynistic overstatements of Eve's crime in Eve's own mouth, as well as the first inaccurate pseudo-feminist assessments of Eve.Those still blur, I will explain to you the full summarised version when I see you. You shud read PARADISE: REGAINED too...its not that im compelled to read it but it juz overwhelmes me each time I read on it. Ook ppl.. i take my leave now... ....and the story goes on..................
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