- today... I am feeling much better..-



Gawddd...

I wrote a nice nice blog then I got dc. I am now at com lab..here I am bloggin and all. I am at the computer table with mats on my left and nerds behind me.

The mats on my left were taking pictures of themselves.. they were banging on the tables and all..hahahha!
They obviously think that Im a munjen! They talkin abt me u know! hahahha!
"eh budak tu sunyi je.. kau tak nak ambik gambar die ke?"
(eh..that gal is alone..you dun wanna take her pic ah?)

Hahahha! Malay guys are dumb! Cant they tell that I am like smiling and all?? And I was typing and all, they were sayin that I typing like a raving lunatic...some crazy journalist like that. What rubbish lah those idiots..
The nerds behind me...They are practicing their powerpoint presentation I think. At first I tot they were conducting classes and all, then wen I turned arnd, I saw all students and ONE idiot was like pointing to da screen and talkin in the air as if he was making a presentation....guess what they are presenting abt...ABORTION! HAHAHAHAA

NERD: we are talkin abt abortion. in here maybe its lack of business.*****

********* interrupted! ************

ooh GOD!!!! YOU CANT BELIEVE WHAT JUST FREAKIN HAPPENED....ONE OF THE GUYS STRIPPED ONE OF THE BLOKE!!!!! I SAW HIM FREAKING BUTT NAKED!!!! HE WAS NAKED!!!!!!! THEY PULLED HIS BOXERS AND ALL...!!!
WHAT THE FUCK!! HE WAS LIKE LOOKIN AT ME AND THEN HE TOLD THE OTHERS...IN MALAY:
DIA NAMPAK TAK??? *(did she see it?!) asshole!!! *literallyy....
they somehow know my name...i think they saw me on frenster or wad la...anyways, i saw his butt...HAIRY BUTTT! i wanted to laugh...i cant help but smile and juz stared blankly.... NO BIG DEAL.....IM NOT INTO BOYS..hahahah! anwyays, that boy...he has nothing goot to look at ....disgusting!!!


hahahhahahahahah!!!!! I still cant believe it man!!! hahahahahaha!! how silly all of them can be...have they forgotten that actually there is a camera that can see what they all have been up to???? STUPID IDIOTS.

Anyways, where was I? Shall I tell you what the nerds did when the strip-tease happened??? They literally stared and juz dismused abt the whole thing...There i was next to them I tried not to laugh and all...I tried to remain calm...God! are they dumb or wad??? Now I am feeling so pissed off cuz they are like saying they wished that they cud take his frontal shot of him naked! what fark!? SICK! SICK!!!!
they regreted they never taken video with the phn! crazy!!! insanity!

anyways, I wanted to talk abt what has been happening for the pass few days...I been feelin SOOO low and down! I cant help but juz cry... I spoken to my boo over this matter...I dare not tell boo cuz I scared that he will misunderstand what was in my heart.

Finally I told him what happened and all..the last thing I need is him piling all on me. He also said in his blog that his ego is the cause of everything and his UNCONTROLLABLE MOTOR MOUTH....he says things like a atomic time bomb..waiting to explode. It really hurts me with the things he said...That day was IT... That was the last straw...I tot that it was way to much for him to say the things he said.

I cant handle anymore stress lah seriously... I know he apologised and all..but geram u know...its like its neverending. I told him many times but he kept doin it again and again...why? he said he will try...I feel TRYING is not good enough...U have to think abt love....its the answer! if you love someone...u will try not to do thingz that realy hurts the other.

anyways, this morning, we talked abt it...full of tears were filled and my heavy heart that was filled with pain...suddenly juz felt better... still sad but much better. I am hoping and praying for a new us...new tomm...new beginning.

He asked me why I din let him go despite countless times he told me that He isnt the oNe for me. and I shudnt have been with him at the first place..that hurts a lot u know...what you mean by that? WHy was it so hard for you to not give this all up? I never given up on us...NEVER u know....

I love you so much...I really do...

* kisses for the man who filled me with love *

sigh....

im bored......been uploading pics and still im bored..waiting for my boo to get ready and we are all set...
but where is my booo?????

now im alone, her fren juz left the plc and im now alone..help me god! hahahah!
its daytime..nothing is gonna happen to you, Pearle...goodnesss!!!
hahahaha! den again u will nvr know...hahahah! okok...
i shall make my leave...till then, ppl....take care...

as for me and my boo..his fren said to jaga our food..baby what we eat is horrible lah! we better like chill ok...no more funny food! now we hv to to follow MY way...no more YOUR way of eating....wahhahahahahahaha! ok lah

baby..if you are readign this, which is like dunno days later....pls ahh..do smthg.!

I LOVE YOU BOOO!

now..the COUSINSKASS....


here we are...on the entrance of oriental hotel suite...


here we are...lookin surprised..


arab husband and wife--> dee and myself..posed for the fun of it..isnt that funny?! hahaha!


dee and myslf again..---> feeling feeling french models..hahahah!

Here are the pics of me and my chicas in aussie... beautiful weather..winter...and if u are wondering why in the world is everyone dressed in winterwear while im not???

im thick-skinned...DUHHHH....hahahahha! here are some pics for the glory of it...



nani and jac.. *notice there is the cherry-blossoms tree? yeah..cool! it only blooms when its winter..


our semangat pose...this pose can literally make the front cover of a single...hahha! summore we are all aspiring singers...hwhahahah!


jac and myself..at the Perth Royale Show. on our way home...really tired!!!


Nani and myslf..jac at the back...we are headign home...nahh..after that we slept over at nani's..

Heyy..

Im now at com lab & Im like browsing thru emails and all in the empty room with Thurrayya, my boo's fren...only the both of us here and we are really tired and bored so we are really not talkative today...

anywys, its always nice to know that how much you love each other...me and him that is...things have been goin on lately since donno when...and since then we were able to counter each problem at a time...

busy la these days...a tad too tiring and energy being used up too.. i been feelin so tired and all...why ah? lately with all the problems not wit him that is...thing is..problems with my cousins' hving problems that is the thing that is mind boggling. times, you wanna reach out and help them out...but your problems are stucked and stays in place...stagnant till they rot.

alia, my guy's niece... talked to him that day wen we fought over nothing...and i realised smthg, age is nothing but a number... despite her age, which is only 14...YES...14...she has certainly matured into someone who knows what she wants, who has been thru shits and also has courage to face the day...i shud do that too! lately my morales have dropped to ground zero.. i dunno what am i to do with my life...

as for now...watever he says or do..im gonna juz sit and ignore...not ignore as in the bad way..but take it easy u knw...its like "i know he din mean what he says..he still loves me the way i am..."
yeah that shall be my way..so i wun be hurt or appalled by what happen...

thanks alia! thanks for understanding and making me life easy...
E-G-O ...is a bad bad thing baby...LOSE IT before you lose yourself...and me...

i love my booo....

Kau Pergi Jua

Wajahmu
Seindah serinya pelangi yang indah
Seharum mawar putih segar berkembang
Wajahmu
Mengapa sering terbayang dimataku
Sehingga terbawa didalam mimpiku

Sayangku
Tahukah kau didalam hatiku ini
Tersimpan perasaan cinta nan suci
Kau bunga
Ingin kusuntingmu menjadi milikku
Lantas kuabadikan dalam jiwaku

Sayangnya
Harapan yang selama ini kubawa
Hancur berkecai musnah jua akhirnya
Semuanya bagaikan sebuah mimpi

Kau pergi jua
Setelah cinta ku kini membara
Belum sempat kucurahkan kasihku
Kau pergi tak kembali...




this song..one of baby's and mine...i remember my baby singing this song...so sexy!
Sayang...i love you!

My boo and we had a goot day during vday... at first of cuz..i was ok.den came towards the end, where we were in the bus and we came across someone that was ok with me..and i am ok with her..only thing that i was upset with was my baby..
he literally puts his hands away from me and said her name...i was shocked..i tot his parents came in the bus. i was sad la...until i can cry...it was that bad cuz i was thinkin how excited my baby was that time wen he saw her face...gosh! i was sad...then baby tried...i know he did...ISNT HE SWEET?!!!

i spent half a day cryin non stop balls...it was terrible..eventually...aftr being left alone, i am ok...den we had double date with the clowns..azmi and diana...at al ameen...tat was fun. *i hope zila n yan...u guys are ok now..we missed u thr at dinner**

my baby was so sweet..he gave me mp3 for vday present. he shudnt hv! goodness me! i was shocked as hell....but i guessed it rite when i asked him what he gettin for me...baby baby...THANK YOU BABY..I LOVE YOU. i told him already...its not the present. i dn care abt the gifts and all..what matters to me..THE GREATEST GIFT TO ME THAT YOU CAN EVER GIVE ME IS YOU JUZ BEING THERE. JUZ BE THE MAN THAT I LOVE ALL MY LIFE

basically ...when he became my bf..that is the day god's greatest gift has bestowed upon me. I am thankful that i have you in my life. I LOVE YOU baby!
eventhough we been thru shit and hell..what matters most is that we managed to pull thru..that matters the most... he is the reason why im like this and he is the reason why i have changed...most of all..he is the reason why i am happy and i feel LOVED....

im goin for my driving test with my baby...wish us luck!

im outt!

ok peeps...

its been that long since i blogged...been having problems with my baby and we sorta almost hit the roof. but eventually it went well...my cny was a blast...my dumb ass fren , mary invited me and my baby to her hse..she was multi-gambling all the way..my baby was enjoyin himself there! he is adaptable! thats what i like abt him...anywhoooo...we have seen the way mary and her cousins gamble and i almost laughed..and bewildered...

the rate of the money that was thrown like paper...it was red notes, blue ones and some of the purple ones...* those of you wondering what color for which notes..go look into your wallet*
i tell you..if we take the money, we wud be rich! can go perth! hahahahaha! wahhaha! not london lah..perth cuz its not that much of a money afterall...

oh dear...woke up today by dila's sms...poor thing! she said that aishah wrote on her blog about dila's late father! HOW COULD YOU AISHAH??!
WHY DID YOU START STOOPING SOOO LOW TO INSULT SOMEONE LIKE THAT?

what has dila done to you??? apparently..there has been this misunderstanding abt karthi's (aishah's bf) blog...and on his tag board...oh man! what is up la??!!
apparently karthi was upset over some bloghopper over some statements that acclaimedly dragged HIS MOM into the pic! Apparently the Bloghopper's name is Karthi as well! hahaha! oh dear!
the person merely said : if you mom finds out you goin out with an malay sareke (what is sareke?), what wud she think?? bla bla...

the person merely said that...and karthi (the bf) feels insulted and attacked dila, accusing her BLINDLY that she did it as dila has the only access to their acc!

WAKE UP! this is the internet world! everyone and anyone can access into your domain u know that???? there are bound to be gatecrashers in this world! why din you think abt that instead of accusing dila???

DEFENCE STATEMENT:

DILA has an alibi . PEARLE AND HID. I called dila to come meet me at civic mackers to hang arnd since i was arnd that area and hid will meet me ther at approx 3.15pm...so i invited her la...usually wen we arnd our fren's house..we will ask them pop by and say hello..or juz sit and talk cuz i had a so called convo with karthi(the bf) abt aishah and dila disputes...so no harm asking dila to come over rite??? yes! no harm indeed.

our innocent fren came and sat with me..den hid came..we were basically talking abt my new found job and hid's school...hid asking us what electives shud she take cuz she needs to take it for her course shit. Basically...dila told us what happened between her and aishah...and nthg abt whose mom or whatever that was accused. she said she blogged last morning..and all...nothign much. its over the internet...whoever can do whatever...seriously!

den all's end well...hid and me went back by mrt together...wen i was abt to reach hm..karthi(the bf)msgd me abt dunno what tagboard remark dunno what shit. he was sprouting nonsense at that point of time! i dunno and i dun understand whats goin on. apparently he claimed that someone typed profanities and all that over at his domain.he accused dila. he asked me to ask my WONDERFUL FRENS wad happened.

what the fuck!? fuckin asked dila lah what happend...she said what?? obviously nothing lah..she basically went online talked to me..den she blogged and den she went gym a while with her sister (another alibi),and met me and hid! what nonsense is that? since when she has the time to actually write and plan to say all those nasty things abt karthi(the bf).
when aishah gave me the addy.. i got a shock! what the hell happened here? what the hell is that??? the fella said "what if your mom finds out..what wud she think?" where got insult?? maybe the indian thingy and all that...but cmon lah...if we have said it...we wud hv curbed our words carefully ok?? and smear it to your face!

hey i used to have indian bf too ok??? and basically this is such a small issue...who wanna talk abt race and all??? when the prob is dila and aishah?????
full of crap lah you karthi!

the cheek you have! you gots the balls to msg me in the middle of the nite attacking me with all these nonsense! whats wrong with you???! u wanna show off that you are some gangster and all that crap! hahaha! wake up! we are not stucked in the sec school mentality! we are adults! i keep tellig you...control your emotions! when you are angry you are NOT THINKING STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!!

YES! you admitted it..you are not thinking straight! the cheek to tell that t'me!
let me juz tell you smthg ok...if you wanna show your true colors to me...where was it??? what can you prove so much??/ what is it abt you that none of us have??? (besides the genitals).... one thing that you dun hv and we have....VALID AND SUFFICIENT EVIDENCE THAT DILA DIN DO IT... ALIBI AND ALL THAT.

karthi(the bf) din wanna give a FUCK abt where they are?? haha! that is the main point you fool!!! you juz dun shout and point fingers aimlessly at ppl you know!! this is a civilised world! not some animal kingdom!!! u hv no substantial evidence that dila was the one...dila's frens have no access and no idea who the fuck you two were...so why were you raging like an asshole shouting and screaming at me attackign me as if i shud listen to your crappy statements???

eh...if u got no proof....i dun entertain you ok! i will get ppl who are not our frens. i will get outsiders to see what has been happening...you want?? you want??

you got it!
anyone who is reading this..and YES! those of you who bloghop!

all you BLOGHOPPERS out there! if you are in singapore...if you are free...come down and be the JURY ....

meet us at liat starbucks...at 5.30pm sharp.

we are open to ppl who are not our frens...i rather get outsiders to hear what you and all of us have gotta say...now..pack up and i see you there!

and dun u dare...DUN YOU DARE...play with me and my frens...you tell me i dunno whr you come from....hmmmph! u think we are scared that you are in tha gang??? wanna call the CID to get you? no need CID..we get your mother lah...yes..i said it! i will calll your mother and let her knw whats happening here. you and all your crap can go to hell!!!!

aishah...i have regarded you as a confidant..and yes...you pushed me to the limit..you deal with the consequences... u think you are ALL THAT..you think you are goddamm PERFECT.think again! take a look at your mirror and look hard! look at the reflection starin back at you...do you see what we see??? never pass comments on others if you cant see your mistakes.

we dun say we are not perfect...we want you to take a peek at the mirror if you dare. and realise your mistakes before you regret.

you want to severe ties...go ahead! dun come running to us again! as far as im concerned im disappointed in your doings and to me...YOU ARE AS GOOD AS DEAD.

are you gonna come after me when i say this to your face???? i will PERSONALLY LET YOUR MOTHER KNOW!! SINGAPORE IS VERY VERY SMALL GAL..EVERYONE KNOWS EVERYONE...AND ITS GETTING SMALLER....YOUR MOM WILL KNOW IT EVENTUALLY AND KARTHI DUN EVER TRY HIDING IT LAH...

U BOTH ARE LIVING IN THE WORLD OF DENIAL.
RELI?!
HAHAHAHA!
REALLY! TAKE A GOOD LOOK ARND!
REALITY SUCKS! AND YES...IF YOU DUN REALISE IT. WE WILL MAKE YOU SEE.

JUST WAIT AND SEE...

U ARE IN SUCH A DENIAL..DREAMIN THAT THIS IS ALL OUR FAULT! I GONNA OPEN UP AND LAY IT ALL ON THE TABLE..YOU CHOOSE...YOU STILL LOSE YOU WHORE-SLUT- BITCH!

U DUN DESERVE ANY SYMPATHY! I DUN CARE! WE DUN CARE! GOOD RIDDANCE LAH WOMAN!
U ARE A PATHETIC PIECE OF LOSER....U AND YOUR BF...

EGOISTICAL LOSER...LOSIGN TEMPER LIKE LOSING MIND.

THIS IS LIFE...OBVIOUSLY YOU HV NOT STEPPED INTO REALITY. LET ME HELP YOU

wake up lah...SNAP BACK to reality you bitch!

YOU HYPOCRITICAL CUNT!




ATTENTION:

LIAT TOWERS...5.30PM. if you wanna be the jury and see whats gg on.
this is not a fite..tis is juz a discussion and laying down whats been gg on..apprently the cute couple (aishah and karthi) thinks that they are rite...
fine..outside ppl here goes!!!
you be the judge


thank you and i bid you farewell!

After the talk yesterday...I realised that there are some sad ppl out there who u know..dun realise that they are really really pathetic!
contradicting...thats bad..another thing...hypocrisy..thats worst! and better still..living in denial thinkin that we are always rite and all that ...and they are wrong..but the hard fact is that everyone was wrong and to a certain extend..it was like they are the one who wanted this all to end up in a bitch slap!!! stupid!

AIshah..Aishah...

you think that you are fucking right all the time dun you? U think that everyone hates you and your bf? Eh pls ah...not in anyone's mind we think less of Karthi much less hate him? You were so stubborn and REFUSE TO LOOK AT ME OR ANYONE IN THE EYE! why?? Arent you hiding smthg?? Hmm? Is that why you are fucking bitter?! Refuse to talk abt thigns and all that..den behind our backs..you still talk abt it..and your bf wahhhh!!! talk so until like HALF-FUCK OF A MAN...he shud be born a woman lah he!
wait aishah..juz wait...KARMA will come to you hard, BITCH!!!
You will get your just deserves..

tell me who the bitch here...her bf the fucker who thinks he sum tough dick...is a wuss!!!

during the discussion yesterday...
we din have the intention to create any fights or what..that wasnt really a confrontation u know..as you can read from her blog...she still not satisfied cuz we talked in public...and she wants it to be smwhere quiet...so she cud raise her hands and 'wake us up' ! waaaahhh...so corporate!!

read their blog lah! its lame! very lame.
how can one be so lame????? i tot everything was fine. we din cause any. we were winners...we made our point..they refused..they denied...they are always thinkin they are rite....my god!!! using my gd fren bf, who is also my fren...saying that he is a penis-less...! wahahhaha! azmi was being normal what. he was making his point! but karthi as usual...CHILDISH MINDLESS FREAK... thats worst! people..as God is my witness and the rest of you readin this ..let me cut and paste k? what that asshole wrote.

: haha those asses are GUTLESS HYPOCRITES who will NEVER admit their mistakes...even the DICK among the PUSSIES behaved like a PUSSY...sighh and they say I AM a disgrace to Men...sheesh

Goat w/Long Legs and ONE more thing...Anyone(and i mean ANYONE) upsets my baby...u askin for trouble...tt's all I gotta say...Cheers! *winks*

will u look at that! ok..fine...after what i hv gotta say..i shant say anymore. i shall retreat... like what my fren wud quote:
" Talking comes by nature, Silence is wisdom "


eh asshole...who?! yes! YOU ...KARTHI! listen here ok! u freak!
u dare to deny? u remember what azmi asked you... So you and me now...ok? i have nothign against you...That was what azmi said..and im sure karthi heard it!
no wunder lah!!! Karthi u are losin thats why you are SOOOOO bitter abt that ...cuz it bruised your ego! hhaha! BIG TIME!! hahaa and you not happy! ohh BOOO-HOOOO!!! GO HOME WEEEPPP! GO CRY BOY!!! CRYYYY!!! BOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!

ANOTHER thing u asshole...yes Karthi..you again!...
- did you check yourself down there? DOWN THERE!!??? what did you see? you see a dick rite?? (despite the size..hahaha!no BIG deal)...
did you realise that besides azmi...YOU were there too??? and that makes you penis-less muthafuckka at the same time???

hahahahahah!!!! that is soooo funny! did you see that??? im sure you don...unless you think you are one of the gals lah... judgin from your arguments and your shivering fits like parkinsons'disease! hahah! and what can you see??? you are a guy too...and most of the times..you are the one who jumped out of your seat!! over GALS!??? hahahhaah! OHHHH..i feel so sorry for you. aishah...you got yourself another lesbian lah!!! another gal...hahahaha! look who see only azmi the only guy...

look closely you foool...you are the other GUY too yesterday!all's fair...like i said before...i say it again.

we will prevail! we did...you losers...you juz weep ok!


IM OUT!


....baby..i see you later dear....i love you!