Monday, October 09, 2006
sad and lonely without u...
I feel so melancholic today.
Woke up zoinked however refreshed with all the good sunday sleep I had.
I woke up sad, thinking of how its been towards me.
I dun wanna cry anymore, I dun want to be in denial but each time when I walk, things seemed to be reminding me of you.
I know I shudnt think abt you especially thinkin how much hurt Ive gone thru when we're together
but It hurts when we are apart as well...
I tried occupying myself with things that doesnt reminds me of you
but tell me one thing... everything seems to be!
Being alone is very depressing and I know I had to move on.
I hate seeing you in this state, but im sorry i hate to see myself in this state too!
Ive been in this for too long and no more being sorry and no more thinking of others first before me.
I have to think about me. You were my priority. My heart; my soul; my everything....
Why did you have to put me in the spot!? Why cant I breathe properly?
Its endless. I got to put a stop to this. Do you even think abt how I feel instead of juz you feeling this way?
Sigh.. t'was the end, I felt numb with all the things you done to me.
Though it may be little but the hurt cuts deep.
As the song goes - First Cut is the deepest.. it really is.
Plus you dont rectify it, it goes deeper.
Im hurt. I duno what else to do to get u off....
I cant seem to sort myself out without feeling so bitter and sad with all these obstacles.
We used to say - THE BEST RELATIONSHIPS ARE THE ONES WHICH HAS A LOT OF OBSTACLES
well, yeah those were the times when i held on to our obstacles as hopes for us, a chance for us to live again..
the fire is gone now... we cant relight it. Not now.
if you cud spend a day, JUST A DAY, in my shoes, how much hurt you had filled me with,
its like opening the pandora's box and seeing the bad side of life, secrets untold...hurts unfolded...
you'd be surprised.
you will be.
til den...
bye.
:: juxtaposed by pearle :: Juxtaposed thoughts sanctioned :: Monday, October 09, 2006
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