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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Love. Hate.

Listening to : Mariah Carey - We belong Together

well.. let me loving today..
sooo full of love...
i am talkin to my cousin, dian now...
well, talkin abt things lahh,.. talking abt love...
then yest, talked to boo and naz abt love...

the element of love...
it is supposed to unconditional...
love doesnt recognise race, gender and everything else..
it is endless..
love is infinite...
what i have learnt frm mom and wylie is that...
learn to love yourself first den you can love others unconditionally...

the day when i met boo,
things take a diferent turn in my life..
i altered what i knew abt love.
den i realised that instead of swimming together with boo,
i was hangin on to boo instead of swimming together,
im clinging on to boo.
and it was too much for boo to handle it...
I meant that figuratively...
i know boo cant really carry me..
eh wait! boo can!!! heheheh!

my point is...
i had to find myself..
loving myself first, den i can love him unconditionally..
then that wud be fine...
then we wud be swimming together...
I am trying to ask myself this question..

being with boo was the best thing that has happened to me.
I was delirious, overwhelmed by the feeling of bliss.
I cant stop thinkin hw i can fall for someone like you...
I wanna shout to the world that i went with you!
Same with you...
boo was so excited boo wanna tell boo family and all that..
but circumstances been keepin us numb.

i couldnt contain myself..
this was the feeling of a lifetime..
epitome of supreme happiness!
den i realised.
i was totally drained with things that has been happening...
i was lingering to the thoughts what if boo were to leave me..
i wud die..

now,
i realise the meaning of love...
and i am kinda back to where i was before i met boo..
it was easier for me to get numb then...
it was easier for me to think clearer then..
my perception of love is totally different as to what im feeling when i went with boo...
all the 'i shud','what if' and 'maybe'...
all these negativity and wallowing in self-pity has to be eradicated.
It can lead to brain fucking poisoning.
that is bad.

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Person #1



this person is supposedly a good fren den.
now, backstabber to the core!
This person was once a peacemaker den.
under dunno what circumstances, thgs have changed.
and suddenly I am the bad person!
what the fuck!
if you wanna take sides, pls be diligent & rational!
dun go be taking sides and thinking that you are neutral!
if you are neutral, you wudnt have judged me or other party,
instead hear the story and den analyse..
not juz think without using your big brains..
but then again..its at your huge ass that loves to juz take free food...
man! look at yourself! you shud be ashamed!
pls.... be matured, which you are now taking baby steps in...
and realised that the wking world isnt all bed of roses ok!!

in the world out there,
it is nt the secondary mode you think you are...
ts super fucking annoying you know that of not???
u think everyone has to respect you cuz you are FUCKING BIG..
hell yeah literally you are.. but nver big on sincerity.
everyone has lives of their own.
we rather be doing better things for our lives rather den having mindless chilling slackering arnd and not botherd abt better things in life...

pls grow up.
you and the other 2 muthafuckers
can sleep together can have a mass orgy and
maybe get yourself pregnant and bear bastards for all i care.

dun play clean when you are not yourself.
u wanna lick and suck their dicks and pussies go ahead.
i dun give 2 fucks.
u conniving piece of cow!
you two headed snake!
you shud be ashamed of yourself...

go take a look at the mirror and go down, look at your cheefuckingbye and die you bitch!


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all you need to know abt my boo

The significant integrant contributing factor...
that i can deduce and dissect from this particular androgynous species is Boo.
Boo's unparallelness in persona.
This indeed will be the particular attribute that you will find yourself being drawn to upon meeting Boo for the first time.
Speaking from 7 years of experience as an fren and gf,
i can safely consummate that to remove and shed boo completely of her self made fabricated outer surface 'shell' can be a challenge but once shed and left solely for the target of vulnerability, boo is indeed someone you will eventually grow to be fond of,
that is....if u are able to eradicate him entirely from his defensive disposition.

boo i wurf you...
you are my greatest pillar of strength
and my greatest weakness.
I will never ever get bored to say
I love you more and more each and every day.

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