Thursday, June 23, 2005
Listening to :[ Gorillaz - Sound Check Gravity]Where?: [SALC] I finally had an epiphany...yeah... boo and me realised smthg; that the older you are, you gotta set your priorities straight.I had a revelation abt things. Thanks to Ashley-- I finally realised that things juz need to change but that doesnt mean you must always stick to things the old way. There is such thing as EVOLUTION you know..Darwin din realised it for nothing..!!We must think abtthe future-- like me and boo, with our lives, our lifestyles... Lately, we been out of touch you know.. with our relationships... and its kinda taking its toll on us you get wad i meant?? We been fighting, loads of misunderstanding and all that shit...-- another thing that i have to set straight is me getting serious with my life... i used to have visions all set out you know.. den i met Olllie, my german bf..... and then i juz went astray...I totally lost focus of things.. i duno what to do.. plus my family thinkin that im crazy , all abt ollie and all that shit.. I dunno what else to think. I used to have a secure career then i realised that i need to step back and realise that i need to take my degree and all..so i wnt to Aussie, stayed there for years.... den i duno what happened, I met Boo.. thats where things have taken a change... I was taken to a sudden spinnage of things momentarily i tot that things werent that serious...and its juz some high school crush... NO! it turns out..that im a closet MoreBian..oh goossshhh!!! I know Wylie and Sam wud really laugh at me when I told them abt Boo and me... Cuz they'd never wud have tot that i wud go that way.. hahahhaa! come to think of it.. i was really cynic... so cynical abt things that i realised that im actually in it!!! hahahahaaanywys, where was i?? yeh,.. Life in aussie.,..then i met Boo.. things were ok...oH yeah.. i was dating Bryan then... American dude... some say kurt COCCAINE lokalike.. hahaha... whatta joke..anyways, yeah i din like him , i juz find boo darn attrative i duno why ahhh.. hahaha..bryan guessed it too.. he knows well that im actually into Boo...he being the understanding man he is...well, things between him and me juz cant work cuz he is juz an exchange student from US and me some minah frm sg,.. cannot make it! he was my psychology partner back in uni days... Kind soul... god bless him..oh yeah.. back to the topic... things have taken a change and I suddenly lost track of things. I suddenly realised that im into Boo so much that i dun care abt work much less Uni... oh goodness gracious for the love of god... I dunno wads happening.. I shudnt have forsaken my degree for things ... somehow that point of time, i was afraid of things, i duno what...juz afraid i guess...-- think abt the future... another topic that i shud be taken notice abt.. we must think abt our future.. careeer and all that shit... frens are not the primary concern in my life... as good frens, they too, shud have the motivation and drive to move on and make a mark in their lives... instead of being super slackers..and some minor setbacks to society and that, my fren, could depict a negative stigma to the public, our racial background, religion, and all that.. for that, we wud be branded as some social iconoclast. now... thats what i dun want the public to think of us malays... in general lah..not depicting to anyone in particular... i sure wudnt want to fall into the category of 'typical' you get what i meant?-- we used to hang out every week balls!!! every weeek!!! sometimes like everyday! where is the sense in that??? i know lahh..we kinda miss each other, but think abt it..we all have families, we have priorities, when we dun wanan chill with you guys, & we said we not free, you can sulk and all... gosh! I guess you all understand why some of our frens juz go away and only come for social gatherings; like birthdays...and all that... we used to slack there at Liat, until late.. without thinkin of lifes..we are throwing our lives juz like dat... time is precious dear... make full use of it... thats bad... -- its time we need to set out in black and white what our priorities are...Fun & all that is secondary... friends who are good frens will understand and they too, will make full use of times.. when weekends come, then its good to meet us and talk abt things pertaining to their lives.. as for now.. we need to take a step back and retract what we have done, move forward and motivate.. we dun wanna be some iconoclast rite?? no... so yeah we shall help each other out..im jobless as for now..after my paris trip, i shall go serious on things... maybe i shud go back to teaching eh??? i think it makes sense... i stilll love kids... juz haven got the love out on them brats yet... hehehee! AShley.. it was a revelation.. thanks for everything...Siti ... you too, thanks for talkin to us yesterday.. it was a reliefZee.. me & Boo shud take heed of what you been doing man..Naz.. u joker of the year... its nice to hear from you too.. we meet up la k???Hid and munz ... another jokers... yeah we meet up again ahh..al ameeennnn abangs all waiting for me and boo at table 21 hahhahaha!Wylie and Sam...okok...i will meet you guys! i know you both miss me.. im gonna call you lahh... love you all...!!!!and to boo... I love you...
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