Monday, June 13, 2005
Im feeling blue...I duno what else to think and feeel.. when can i actually feel happy, without any sad things holding me back??Why cant i love you without me feeling smthing diffferent? I wud like to love you unconditionally... Out of my respect for you, I din do things that you dun like me to do.U dun have to say the things to make me feel comfortable, the look juz satisfies me. I know.... but now... its all different. its all so cold and endless journey of melancholy and heartbreak.I wud like to go back to the old times... Its like i only feel that you back to ur old self only for 'special appearance' but i dun seem to sense any love anymore after that onwards..its juz things feel so different now.. maybe its right. your school and the time we spent is taking its toll on us.. I feel so useless, not worthy of anything. I cried every nite...cuz i cant take shit anymore... been taking shits since day 1. when can i actually have freedom???I have limited time with you, yet i try to make time for us. You said you need daily dosage of me.. where is the prescription? you dun seem to try and find me... have you missed me???I feel so empty and sad... you are there but you arent. Here i am tearing endlessly, feeling so empty inside... more hurt and emptinesss filled me with the tears of agony. I dunno what else to describe the feeling inside... when im typing my eyes are filled with cloudiness of clueless feelings. I dunno what im talking, i dunno what else.. my mind is blank...i cant stop crying!!i need to heal... im so hurt...am i numb?lost?...im clueless...help me return my feelings back to me...i need my happiness and bliss...i need it badly...help?all i feeling now, its like im in a long, dark and empty tunnel ride to infinity.....clueless of what the outcome of life is gonna be..i need help...help me...pls???
:: juxtaposed by pearle :: Juxtaposed thoughts sanctioned :: Monday, June 13, 2005
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