Thursday, June 09, 2005
hey ...here i am again... I am sooooo amused by the color green... i dunno why... i think i am attracted to it...I am waiting for boo... yeah we had a bad day yesterday and 2 days back... I kinda like backlashed on everything... i dunon... basically i am juz pissed over wad has happened to me since i dunno when... I dunno why... but i seem to push it all out on boo... well boo partly has to be blamed over what has happened..you see, i been so tolerable with boo and what boo has done. I been so silent and patient to it. I am tolerable to his insults, tolerable to his rantings and all... I duno why but ppl asking me why im so patient and i wud say the same things i mentioned the other time... yeah... but sometimes we juz need to recap and retract what we have said and done.as for boo, boo likes to sit over the nite our problems whereas i like to solve it there and then, i dun like sleeping over my problems... i am not that type. did you know that you can literally get sick and all death and stresses in the world are sourced by stress??? when you worry too much, it will juz become worst... and cancer will strick in, and heart problems and all will come in... not cuz of smking.... NO... not cuz of what... JUST STRESS...yeah... i tried to meditate and i tried too many things, but when boo started to annoy me, i juz cant seem to concentrate and i seem to get my heart ache... whyyy!! i dunno how to explain things but yeah the things that happened basically are the cause by stress...what am i jabbering abt?? i dunno what else to say now basically i dunno what has beeen on my mind... last nite i cant stop crying and crying... i din get any sleep... i cant sleep with all the tings that been on my mind, unlike some ppl and booo of cuz, he can sleep and think abt it...not me...!NO... i need to sleep wid a little stress as possible... problems are inevitable... they come and go... but we need to clean that up so we dun have to pile more problems gettit?? and ppl who juz have more and more probs actually get stress...and when they do get stress, it accumulates till it becomes a tumor...and so on and so forth...yu think i am wrong... go look arnd, go ask arnd... my grnma, stressfree...well.. smoked all her life...but seems like ok...she died at a ripe old age... my uncles, who are in like their early 50s..or 40s... they non smokers... they had stress...they died!ask arnd... ppl who meditate, ppl who clear all the bad karma in them...they actually lived longer than ppl who juz worry all their lives... lamenting on how bad life is to them and why them...not others...well... lets all wonder why all these happened...in my religion...we had the 5 times prayer... in which the steps that we take is more like yoga...it calms the soul... well.. i dunno..maybe my theory is wrong..but tell me... where can you see the dalai lama, the late pope, and some muslim leaders... (not saddam...not the JI ppl.. ) some good ones... they lived long... oh yeah..MOTHER THERESA... thats one woman with a heart..and the whole world problems in her hands... do you see her complain abt things? the late pope for example... what can you say abt yourself?im telling you, live in stress-free environment and you be happy... you see life in a different prespective... a totally diff spectrum... a more positive outlook, you happy, your loveed ones happy... everyone is happy...pearle pusssing o-u-t....
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