today..i dunno what happened...
fuck la...try to talk to him...i was so upset over yesterday's incident. the same old lines will appear...if im hurting..he is too.. but he never tells me what hurts him and all...yeah...so im the one alwys thinkin abt it...

i want PEACE. i cant lie to myself ....lately i dun have any...unpeaceful nites....that was why i needed the cases to be solved so that i can hv peaceful sleeep...peaceful heart...i want to forget all those things that has happened yesterday...but he isnt helping...i tried to make a happy thing by telling him what i did and all...what he cud reply was SHORT...SUMMORE IT HAS HMMM..YA....OK.... whats that? you not enthusiastic abt my story....? look i am sad but yeah....i want to attain peace and all that...so im trying to forget .... can you help me? instead of making things as if its still there...when i want to talk abt it..he will say 'forget about it' so yeah...when i really forget abt it...he reacts in that way....

im learnign to look at this at a broader spectrum. iu asked myself this...do i look at where we all started? how we both starteD? how d spark begins? from there i begin to see him as the person i knew....the person whom i still so much in love with...the person whom i want to share my life with, grow old with...
sigh... i hope this turns out well...i want it too..i hope he does as well....