once more into the wind. . . The embers scatter ... And the chill settles in.... Abandonment returns to taunt me again....

its not that im there with him all the time! im here! fucking lonely all...missing him all...
i dunno what to do, how to explain this. i dun..really... i hope he will understand that we are not near in the same continent. i wish i am...so i can understand...i only get to hear him. so sad...i miss him. but yeah....frustrating...!!! bloody is!
miss him so much it fucking hurts all the time...wen i wake up, i think abt him...what he doing...when i sleep i cry most of the time cuz i miss him...i cant get to see him the next day! thats why!!! i dunno....it sux to be away from the ppl you love. can never get enough of each other. this is painful. which was why i had this skin now...i miss him sooo bad....

doesnt it ever stay? couldnt love ever be smthg tangible and real?
i only wanted you to stay..linger and mean the words you said...
for the first time...
i only wanted you to be THE ONE to get me thru the nite...
i only wanted you to be there when i open up my eyes.....



doesnt it ever stay? i only wanted you to ... stay....



... pearl blew kisses to rudz ...