its damn blooody hot outside...to make things worst...its darn hot inside as well..
i wanna spend time with my baby. i miss him loads
i guesss i have to understand his situation. i dun wanna pretend that its ok. but what can i do? what can i say?
i dun wanna be that kinda gf who is not understanding. i tried to understand but its KILLING ME INSIDE.
i am missing him soooo fucking much...it hurts ALL the time. i love him so much! its not his fault.
i miss him so much! i wanna come back and back to his arms again....i cried myself to sleep.woke up at 7pm. tim asked me to join dian and the unit opp for a big family dinner, took shower and spent time with them, good laughter...
i feel happy again...but i miss him, i do! i miss him sooo much that i feel so lost when im not talkin to him, i miss his voice, i miss his touch,i miss him holdin me. i miss every part of him. i miss every time and moments we share.
honey i will make things better for us. i know i will... I MISS YOU RUDY ASMARA!!!! hope you are here with me. I LOVE YOU!



... pearl blew kisses to rudz ...